Seeing the Elephant

War is an exercise in patience and masochism.
Repetition lasting eons that age a man
With scars of body and of doubt,
Much as the ground itself trembles
Long before the elephant itself draws near.
War comes as fleeting views of mud and gray charging past,
The pachyderm leaves a jumbled mess in its wake.
In the end there are only memories:
The luminant flash of flame
Blinding in the darkness,
The brisant shock of an explosion
Rolling as a mighty gust of wind,
The impossibly loud roar of a field gun in action
Causing the never-ending ringing in one’s ears,
The wafting billows of grey-white smoke
And crisscrossed contrails of rockets streaming through the sky,
The smell of cordite on the wind,
Followed by the acridity of burning diesel and human flesh,
The burning sting of sand and pebbles
Driven along with the glowing slag in the blast wave,
The knot in your stomach as tracers reach out for you,
Or the chilling sweat on the nape of your neck
As bullets bend in flight and pass you by,
The oppressive weight of helmet and armor
Not nearly as heavy as the drawing of each breath.
Every soldier fights against the fear in their guts,
Leaning on the bonds of comradery and training
To drive themselves and others to do the impossible.
War is that place were every thought and action is simple and basic,
Because thinking and acting are so very hard to do.

Sing a Song of Seasons with Memories of Me

Gate to Seoul

Running through the sandy spring hills, along the creeks, in the pines,
Down corduroy red dirt roads, fleeting childhood, warming climes.
Honeysuckle water and dewberry juice, sweetness in your mouth,
Magnolia and Crape Myrtle blooms, smelling springtime in the South.
The resonant tones of guitar and bass hanging in the air,
Front porch family pickin’ country gold, little dirty kids without care.
Growing up poor but with all they needed, setting the deepest roots,
Running barefoot in the pasture, or in cut-offs and cowboy boots.

Walking in burning summer sands, between the rivers, this is war!
Wearing 30 pounds of armor, tracers flashing, rockets roar.
Blowing sand and streaming sweat, saltiness on the tongue,
Burning flesh and sweet cordite, acrid smoke filling the lungs.
Summer weighs oppressive, rolling thunder booming from the guns,
Nations at war making full payment in the blood of daughters and sons.
Growing older with gnawing emptiness, forming the deepest scars,
Marching boot-clad through the trials, changing seasons, changing stars.

Sitting at a desk behind a flat screen, pecking out lessons upon the keys,
Middle-aged in autumn and breaking down now, failing back, tired knees.
Leaves dropping from the barren trees just like the hair from lengthening brow,
With the fall comes a winding weary slowing, life losing its flavor somehow.
All the tones are slowly fading, except the growing ringing in the ears,
The music now is mostly memories, bring smiles and sometimes tears.
Finding joy in all the little things, moments lived, friendships found,
Knowing soon that cooling winds are coming, frosting hair and frozen ground.

Laying still and cold in winter, in garden of stones, with frozen breath,
Never more to roam the backroads, but peaceful resting now in death.
Bluish lips and tongue taste nothing, dry and frozen in the mouth,
Spirit gone on to new places, but once again a child in the South.
The sounds of men and angels singing, reverberating through the skies,
Content in all the life gone past now, not everyone lives, but everyone dies.
Despite the winter chill around, a warming thought, this one fine thing,
Soon the frozen ground will thaw again, for after winter comes the spring.

Vitals

He’d die,
Accompanied
By his rifle,
Steeped in sweat.
Not disinfectant.

The oximeter, low.
No breath is free.
Each is enlisted.
They wake him
To take vitals.

A prisoner of war,
His blood let,
Not to a lab,
To madder root.
It was lunacy.

Men cut
Easier’n cane
They raised.
Lashed- eyes,
And back.

In between,
He waited
For a bullet
To the head.
Not a tumor.

A prison,
The Senate.
Hospitals.
Battle-brought
Nearly home.

Last Tattoo

Gate to Seoul

When the battle is over
When the mission is done
When the tour has ended
With the casing of the guns

When the bugle plays the last note
A soldier’s mind begins to roam
To the things missed on the mission
Hearth, Homeland, Family, and Home

While the time afield was passing
Living, dying, victory, pain
So too back home was changing
Growing, dying, so much loss and gain

From the monotony of the battlefield
Days of boredom, moments of strife
To the monotony of normality
Daily living the family life

The soldier holds two worlds in balance
Both of duty, and of station
Committed fully to both causes
Love of family and of nation

Eventually every watch is over
And every deployment ends
Then a fading old soldier and family
Find time and place where life begins

In Ur of the Chaldees

Gate to Seoul

In Ur of the Chaldees,
Standing in the present upon The River’s edge surveying the future and the past;
Smelling the offal of five thousand years of human history boiling in the water and the desert heat;
Hearing the echoes of Sumer and Edom, Assyria and Babylon, alongside that of Riyadh and Tehran-
Chariots crashing against shields and spears,
The whistle of arrows and stones,
The distant crack of a Kalashnikov;
Feeling the oppressive weight of human history, the eternal struggle,
At least since the Plant of Heartbeat was stolen by the serpent.
Tasting the salty blowing sand- heavy in the air,
The acidic pollution of overcrowded cities,
And the acrid smoke from burning bodies and the burning oilfields;
Death is on the breeze.
Seeing the Tel of Ur in its ancient geometric splendor,
Ishtar gate rising in Babylonian majesty,
The crumbled Walls of Nineveh no longer protected by the thunder of chariots,
And the concrete panels dividing every community from Basra to Mosul;
Seeing the unseen deep and knowing the unknown like Gilgamesh of old;
In Ur of the Chaldees, in the shadow of Babylon, the wind flows down from the mountains of Assyria;
In Ur of the Chaldees mere men try to conquer death,
Yet cannot even conquer sleep,
And in the trying release visions and hallucinations of suffering upon mankind.
In Ur of the Chaldees Abram was called out on a journey without an end.
Father Abraham- a stranger in a strange land,
A stranger in a strange land- as am I,
A stranger in a strange land- as are We.
In Ur of the Chaldees Utnapishtim grieves eternally-
The cradle of civilization has been made into a tomb.